Hello God, I know we chat everyday, several times in fact, but it has been a while since I have placed a 911 call to you. Probably since Andrew's open heart surgery. I'm placing this call because as you already know this 3rd adoption is NOT going the way that "I" want it to. We had to re-submit our I800 because it was "misplaced" at the National Benefits Center. I nearly had a melt down over that because it means that everything is delayed just that much more. Tomorrow it is suppose to arrive there again, this time with many of us tracking it to be sure. I am trying to come to grips with the fact that we will not be able to travel in time to be with Olivia on her 7th birthday as "I" had hoped. Instead, I will have a cake sent to the orphanage for Olivia to celebrate one last time.......with her China friends. We will celebrate here at home and pray that she has a wonderful day. I have also come to realize that how "I" wanted to transition her here at home, the time spent here before she starts school and my whole mind set of how things are suppose to go probably will not happen either. Normally, before all of these new rules were put into place, we would be there right now. It has been over 3 months since her referral. It takes so long now. My heart aches to get to her. However, I am scared this time Lord. This is the ultimate journey for us. One of true faith in you. I know you placed this child on my heart and had me find her for a reason.....and while I trust you in, I am also fearful. So at this point, I am letting it all go, giving it all to you and asking to please give me peace and understanding. An inner peace Lord, that whatever our families future might be, that it will all work out when and how it is suppose to. Please watch over my sweet girl....protect her and keep her safe until we can get to her and bring her home......and please give me the emotional strength to carry and on be strong while we wait to complete our final journey.
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Oh Steffie....I am praying for you! I know how disappointed you must be to miss her birthday....know that I am on my knees.....know that God is in control and watching over your sweet Olivia. Big hugs my friend:)
Tears for you...they don't help but they come from my heart. ♥
I will pray for courage and peace as you wait for your sweetie.
Steffie,
What I don't understand is how a little girl can wait so long for her family, and why governments can't come together to make it happen faster.
I do know God is watching over her and keeping her safe.
I'm praying for you to have peace about it all.
big hugs,
Gail
He is watching over ALL of you and listening to all of our prayers to get to Olivia when He deems the time is right.
{{{HUGS}}}
Your words brought me to tears, so touching & you wrote exactly how I am feeling as well! My heart is aching for you & my thoughts & prayers are headed your way!
Thank goodness God brings adoptive families together to go through these hard times because not everyone totally gets it!!
Love you. It's all going to work out. God is in control. Just like Andrew and Sophia were in His hands, Olivia is too.
praying. I saw where you posted on FB & I just about cried with you. Hang on girl - God wouldn't give you anything that you & Him together can't handle!!!!!
Olivia will make it. She's strong - you know she is. She will appreciate & love y'all so much when you get to her. Keep the faith.
Blessings,
Charity
Praying for you! May you rest in His wings tonight!
Psalm 91:4 (NIV)
He will cover you with his feathers,
and under his wings you will find refuge;
his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.
I have tears in my eyes as I read this! I will spend sometime this evening praying for your peace. I cannot imagine your wait and frustration. Praying that God will give you his peace that surpasses all understanding and that he will make your meeting with her even that much sweeter. I will also pray that He will reveal to you at some point why this delay was necessary in your journey. Again, I cannot imagine this waiting, especially since you have seen her picture. Praying...
Steffie, I am so very sorry. I said a prayer just now - for courage and patience and peace. That is a long, LONG time to be holding a photograph.
Steffie, it really should not be this way. I just don't understand why the governments make it so hard to get to our babies in a timely manner. I can't imagine having that picture in my hand for 3 months..... I know it is so painful for you and pray that you will get to your sweet girl sooner rather than later. It is in God's hands and you have to have faith that he will get you there.
xoxo,
Lisa
Things will work out.
.God is looking out for Olivia and she will be home with her family soon..
love you tons..
God holds Olivia, just as He's holding you, Steffie.
Hang on, girl!
love,hollym.:)
So wise to hand it all over to Him...i hope you have Olivia very soon.
I pray that Olivia remains strong and somehow knows in her heart that her mommy is coming and when she gets there will never let her go. EVER.
I pray for peace for you, Steffie, and that this wait is soon a distant memory.
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