The Call

I need to back this post up by one day prior to "the call." I got an email from a friend asking me if I had seen these two particular "waiting boys" on my agencies list. I had not, and I immediately looked at them and sent my SW an email requesting to view their files. Next Day..... As I was heading out for the day, I decided to bring my lap top with me in case my SW did indeed call me about these two files. I had a "To DO" list but figured I could swing into Panera Bread to view them if she called me. I was in Marks Photo Shop, looking at a new camera when the phone rang at 11:47 am. I saw that it was my agency but had no idea what she would say. She asked me if I could talk, if I was driving, asked where I was and so on. She is always so worried, bless her heart! So I told her where I was and she said "well you need to call me back right away because I have a referral for you." I scream, "You do, no way...what....really... it's not one of the boys or a file from the 27 files you have???????????" She says "No, we were able to match you off of the COP Portal." I think the next words out of my mouth were "Oh my gawd, I think I am going to throw up." Is it a boy or girl?" "Boy" she says. I was so relieved. Because since October, when we sent our revised letter in stating that we would except either gender, I think we have all been mentally prepping for a boy. We realized the God doesn't just say to bring home the orphan girls....He calls us to bring home the orphans. So, back to throwing up....lol. Both men in the Photo Shop immediately head to get me a waste paper basket. lol I tell her I will wrap up my sale and call her as soon as get into the Mama Machine. I then inform the salesmen, that I have known for a very long time that I am ok and explain my situation. He is thrilled.

So, I get into the car and call her. She tells me his birthday and his SN and asks if we would like to proceed and see his file. I say YEEEEEESSSSSSS! So she tells me that she will call the home office and let the head girl there who is doing the matching (no names can be given, sorry) that we are indeed interested. I tell her how I have my lap top with me and we both get a giggle out of that. I have NEVER brought my lap top just "out and about", with me before. NEVER! My next call is to David and then to some friends. At this point I am just shaking and I head to Panera Bread. I walk in there, with my computer and Blackberry in hand, feeling "oh so techy" with all the other computer geeks there and place my order and head to my seat right by the fireplace. I am emailing frantically between two friends while waiting and trying to call Gwen in TN as well. I knew it could take some time to get the file because I was told they were trying to match several families from this new release of children. I'm on the phone with Gwen when my SW calls. Poor Gwen, I think I said I've got another call because I saw the number and I hung up on her. Sorry girl....I'm sure you understand. lol My sw was calling to tell me she has confirmed her email and her voice mail did get to the head girl to hold the file for us but that she had not got the file via email yet. I laugh and tell her where I am and that I am just "WAITING.......JUST WAITING LIKE ALWAYS." We both just laugh at the tone of my voice and the whole waiting game that the adoption journey is!

Finally at 1:40 pm the file comes through. My hands are shaking badly. I scroll down to see my boy, my hand comes over my mouth, I let out a little gasp because I must tell you that he is just stunningly handsome. And what is even more uncanny is that he looks so much like Sophia. Their eyes, nose and lips. He took my breath away. I closed my eyes and just began to cry. There I was staring into the face of a child I have waited so long for. My last dream come true to complete my life and family. Another part of this journey that is finally here for my family to embrace. The sibling I thought Sophia would need so badly. A connection, a bond, another story for her to understand as part of her life. The brother I had prayed for, for Daniel. And Emmie's dream come true to bring home one more precious gift from China.

After I pulled myself together, I sent his picture to Daddy and Emmie on their cell phones. David called me right away and Emmie called after school and was screaming over the phone in disbelief. I think most of the entire freshmen class heard the news. I cried most of the way home. Tears of joy, tears of relief, tears of sorrow for having doubt at times, but mostly tears of joy for my last dream is coming true...... I got "The Call."