Friday, January 9, 2009

45 months of waiting

My dear sweet boy.......

I have waited to see your face for 45 months. From the moment I was standing in China, in April of 2005, I knew that in my heart I would see the face of another. The time I found out I was pregnant, was the time you were being born. I am so sorry my sweet love that you have had to wait for me for so long. I have cried many tears over you and have longed to fill your room with you. I do not know your journey, I do not know your pain.....but I pray that you will feel my love from the moment our eyes meet. I will embrace all of your sorrow and will look forward to seeing your joy. I will hold you through your grief and I will praise you for all your accomplishments. Hold on a little while longer sweet boy.....just a little while longer. I'm coming......I am coming to bring you home to your Forever Family. And I promise you sweet love of mine....that we will love life together......you and me....forever and always.... Mother and Son.

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OH MY #6 said...

Steffie, I can't imagine what is going through your head and heart now. But, this little glimse is so sweet.

You are top of mind for me right now and I am constantly checking up on you for updates. Please know you are in my prayers as you prepare.

And, I can imagine that you are having fun doing so shopping too.

Lea
xo

Dita said...

How beautiful. Oh, he will know, all right, just like all your other babies know...just how very much you love them.

I am so excited that he will be here soon to join his Forever Family.

So Daniel will have a big brother after all!

Just can't wait to see his beautiful face!

Shelly and Family said...

I am still on "cloud 9" for you and your family!

Kim said...

BEAUTIFUL..
Love ya girly..
He will be a special little boy and he will be loved like no other..
Hugs.
Glad you have found the joy at the end of this journey..
You deserve him.. he is soooo HANDSOME...

Linette said...

Simply beautiful Steffie! I'm just sooo happy for you. I've seen so many answered prayers lately. I bet it's surreal after all the months of waiting. God is so good!

Global Girl said...

Congrats!

Julia said...

So beautifully said!

LaLa said...

OH, so sweet....I feel like saying " A clue, a clue" on his age...LOL

So happy for you sweet friend. Oh, and I think FB chat was not being nice last night...anyway, Coby is doing great. I posted his bday pics : )

Anonymous said...

We who are praying can pray you there and back:) We can pray for instant LOVE....we can pray for quick smiles and many hugs....we can do this, because we who have continued to pray for all waiting families just this week received an answered prayer....you saw his precious face...this week.

Thanking God for prayers answered and for those He already knows we will send up to Him....

Now, hurry up and get approved for travel on this sweet boy of yours...I've been out of this loop for a time now, last time we went on over to China was 2006, brought home an older child, my daughter, Jadyn Hua....

SO WHAT HAPPENS NEXT??? Do you still await PA or are you just waiting on TA??? What is next in the wait for the Tribe, how can we pray specifically for you....let us know and it will be done!!!

Musings from Kim K. said...

What a beautifully written post. He is so loved. His world will forever be complete. All my best!!

a Tonggu Momma said...

Written from the heart, Steffie. Blessings to you as you wait this last little bit.

Marla said...

LOL Laura, I thought the same thing!! :)

I'm so excited for your family, Steffie. I can't wait to see your precious son's face!!

Michelle said...

Your words like poetry ... and so is your love for your precious new son. I can't wait to see his sweet face!

Teresa said...

I have shed some tears for you this week! What an amazing New Year for your family. He does not yet know how blessed he will be by all of you, but soon, very soon he will know the love of his forever family. Congratulations!

I'm dying to see that sweet face!

Elisa...life as we know it. said...

Oh man I am just crying happy tears for you all...this is so wonderful.

I can't wait to see his handsome little face!

Gail said...

Oh Steffie...so beautiful and from the heart written for your little son. I have been there too. On the plane flight TO China to adopt Grace I knew we'd be back to adopt a second time. You'll be holding your boy very, very soon.

hugs,
Gail

Anonymous said...

Steffie,

I know the longing to wipe away the early sorrows of our children who have waited! You have me in tears. May God bless you all richly!

Michelle R Photography said...

Beautiful, Steffie. Simply beautiful. Hugs to you, my friend.

Life with JJ, Starr and Spice said...

That post was so from the heart and it is one that your son will treasure someday.

mommy24treasures said...

oh... sweet sweet...

Anonymous said...

I am a foster mom from Canada and love to follow forever family journeys. I have been following your journey since you brought your daughter home.
Your kids are so beautiful. I cannot wait to follow you to bring your son home.
I cannot wait to see his beautiful face.
God Bless
Canada Blogger.

Chasing Dreams Photography said...

Beautiful my dear friend...straight from the heart!!! Do you have a name yet for your little man? I am so happy for you!!!

Sew Much Fun said...

Congratulations. We will look forward to hearing more about your journey (travel times, etc). It has been a long road for you.

Rhonda

sweet momma luv u said...

Steffie,

So simply beautiful and filled with the love only a mother will give to her child.

I just can't wait to see his precious face!

I tried to get on CCAI WC list but I have lost the password. Our agency is still not on the WC electronic list. :(

Hugs,
Jody

Nikki said...

I'm crying tears of absolute joy with you, Stef...your heart sounds so full and happy!
XO
I'll continue to pray for your sweet son while he waits for you - just a little while longer.

Carla said...

So, so sweet! I am so excited for you and the rest of your family! All of you are surely blessed!

Blessings,
Carla

Half Gaelic, Half Garlic! said...

I think that is the most beautiful thing you have ever written...

I am thrilled for you my friend. I can just imagine his little sweet face and cannot wait to see the day you become a forever family!!

Have a great weekend....and let the shopping begin!!

Lisa

Jodee said...

What a sweet post! I can't wait to see you together!

Faith, Hope, and Love said...

What a beautiful dedication to your sweet son! Congratulations...the long wait is about to come to an end!!! I love how your blog is all decked out in blue. I can't wait to see his precious face! God is so good!

Lisa said...

Well said...I am just over the moon happy for you all! I can't wait to see his sweet precious face and also to follow your journey.

I completely remember following you when you were in China with Sofia and then I remember finding out that you were pregnant and then finally we became "friends" hrough our blogs.

Now I get the privledge of following you all on your final journey to complete your family. God is soooo good!

Kim N Jeff said...

Steffie - I am soooo happy for you!!! I'm just catching up and you made me cry with your "call" post...

Have fun getting ready for the new one it won't be long until you see his little face in person :)

The Byrd's Nest said...

This brought tears to my eyes...how wonderfully magnificent He is that these dates of your pregnancy and your newest son's birth are so close together. I also will be praying you to China and back home. I have already begun praying for attachment between Mother and Son...XXXOOO

Anonymous said...

Steffie,

Such a heartfelt, precious posting!

Any names picked out yet?? So excited for you!

Dawn

Shawnstribe said...

(((HUGS)))
and more (((((HUGS)))))
xxx
s

Heather said...

Awww Steffie - such joy, such unbelieveable joy! We rejoice with you and cannot wait to see his precious face. I have to say I feel like a stalker now, checking constantly just to get a glimpse:)

Thank you for your transparency and heart - I know it reaches the souls of all of us.

Congratulations:)
Heather

Kate said...

Just beautiful...and so meaningful to those of us still waiting. All in perfect time, my friend...he is the miracle you have waitied for.

Congratulations to your entire family...I am just overflowing with hapiness for you all. So touching! It was meant to be.

Rhonda said...

Steffie,

I know this is a beautiful post, but I can hardly see the words because of the background graphic....I don't know if it's more obscured for me b/c others obviously are seeing it fine....Anyway, congrats!!!! I'm dying to follow your journey and my prayers are with you and your sweet boy!

~Rhonda

Adoption Blog said...

This is a beautiful post Steffie!

;-)