The Last 48 Hours

Ok, so I know I said I needed a break, which I do, however I do believe that when many of you say that we are in your thought and prayers that you mean and it and that you also have grown fond of coming to visit my blog because you like to read about the children. So I wanted to let you know what has gone down here in the last 48 hours. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Sophia: I posted that her fever spiked to 104.8* on Wednesday evening. I thought it was quite odd. She was very emotional that evening and we put her to bed early. She was up a few times during the night but went back to sleep with no problems. Thursday morning she woke and still was not a very happy camper. She hated this new medicine and she always been a great medicine taker. I managed to get the morning dose down her only to find out about and hour later she had broke out in hives. She was itching every where and very distraught. I gave her Benadryl and put her in the tub. We got it under control and had a new Rx called in. I am still seeing some hives here and there and when I give her the Benadryl she just perks right up. Very weird.....she has never had things happen like this before. I still plan on taking her back in this week to be checked out again. I just know something is not right with her. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Emmie: I think I mentioned that she stayed home Monday and Tuesday. By Wednesday she felt like she could get out of bed and she was very worried about being two days behind. On Friday afternoon my cell phone rings and she is calling me from school telling me she can't breathe very well. So I leave immediately and drive to the school. She comes down the hall and talks to me, she seems to be ok, but breathing very quickly and her breath's were very short. She went to collect her things and when she came back she was out of breath from carrying her stuff. I already knew that I was going straight the the Doctor's office. They got us in. My thought was probably pneumonia.??? As we sat and waited I noticed that her feet actually looked purple. They felt cold but she kept saying she was sweating. She went in for a chest x-ray and the Doctor said her lungs really didn't look bad. However, she wanted Emmie to do a breathing treatment because the breath's Emmie were taking were so shallow she really couldn't hear her lungs very well. As Emmie started the treatment, she pulled it out of her mouth and said "I don't like this Mom", I told her to stay calm and just try to breath. I went over and rubbed her back as she closed her eyes and tried to stay calm. It made me realize that she really still is a little girl in some ways......the fear, the uncertainty, the tears. After 5 minutes the Doctor came in and listened to her lungs again and decided that because of where she was pointing that the pain was and the tightness in her upper chest that it could be Bronchitis. We then discussed Mono. Now mind you, it nearly pushes Emmie over the edge if she thinks there is a shot involved and she has never had her blood drawn. So, working through that issue with her was not pretty, but as I began to listen to all the Mono symptoms, I thought it fit her to the tee. The Lab Tech came in and Emmie laid down and then she said she need to sit up because she couldn't breath. So we sit her up, and she just starts gasping for air......saying "I can't breath, I can't breath".......she is clasping at her chest and I look at the Lab Tech and tell her to get the Doctor. I continue to look at Emmie and calmly tell her to breath slowly and she is shaking her head and gasping.....I am staring into her eyes to make sure that I don't see them roll back for fear she might pass out. She is looking at me and still saying she can't breath and it is very obvious she can't. She then says "Mom, help me....please"..........do you have any idea the fear that jolted through my body? Have you ever had your child look at you at tell you she can't breath? It took everything I had to keep my composure and I opened the door just as they were bringing an oxygen tank for her. They put it on and she began to breath, they then put the clamp on her finger to see that her oxygen level was at a 93 instead of 100. And I do believe it was probably lower than that since they gave her the oxygen first and then put the clamp on. At this point Emmie truly looks horrible. Now mind you, we still need to attempt to get her blood drawn. Well she decides that she wants the Doctors head nurse to do it over the Lab Tech. I already know where this is going because as I watched her look at Emmie's veins.......like her.....I barely saw them. So, she puts her head into my shoulder, the needle go's in, she begins to cry, and yep.....they got nothing! I said no more. They put her back on oxygen, but it was still very clear that she could not really breathe well. We eventually ended up leaving, getting 3 Rx's for her and was told that if she had another episode like she did there, to take her to ER. I called David and told him he needed to come home right away, which he did. I spent the evening, checking on her constantly, she seemed to calm down, she slept a lot, I did not however......I even brought the extra monitor up to my room last night so I could hear her if she called me. They gave her some anxiety meds. My Mother said with everything she has been dealing with at school, the fact that she is not feeling well, perhaps she just had an anxiety attack at school and that she just couldn't take it yesterday. Perhaps she is right...............I also informed Emmie that I will be treating this like Mono as well. No more extra curricular stuff until after we are back from Maui. I will be taking her back in next week as well......again, I just know something is not right with her. It scares me. My girl needs rest, her soul needs to be refreshed, she needs extra love, she needs to know how special she is no matter what others tell her, she needs prayer, she needs to pray herself, we need time together as a family, we just all need to heal.