{ Is The Door Closed? }

We have been home with Olivia for a little over a week now and it has been an easy adjustment for all of us. I don't know why that all three adoptions have been so easy for us, but we feel very blessed to be able to share our stories with those that will listen and are interested. Many of you know where my heart is in regards to the adoption journey. How deep and spiritual it is for me and how deeply planted it is in my soul. I knew within days of coming home with Andrew that I felt our family was not complete and I knew while in China with Sophia that our Olivia Grace was there. As I look back on this whole entire process, it really amazes me to know that the Lord had it planned out all along. That He would give us two boys while my heart grew and became more aware of the older children that needed homes too. So, the big question........is the door finally closed? How could I ever do that? How can anyone ever close the door on something so beautiful and God given? However, I do know that at this point I feel more at peace than I ever have. I look at the five children I still have here in our home and the four little ones that will grow up so closely together and I am filled with a sense of closure. Now, I also know better than to "say" the door is closed, because clearly in my life, the Lord has shown me that He is in control. I do not believe that we will "actively" start another paper chase, but what I do believe is that I will begin to take an active roll in our church, community and to anyone that will listen and become an advocate for the orphan children. To encourage, help with getting someone started, whatever it takes to bring the orphans home to families that will love them forever. I pray that I will find the words to encourage others and that people will see the happiness that David and I share with our children. And should the Lord try and tell us something different in the next year???? Well, you know that we will answer that call. ;)