I Never Dreamed.....

All my life, I never dreamed.........

I never dreamed I would have my own Asian Princess to love. That I would actually have another daughter and get on a plane to fly half way around the world to bring her home. I never dreamed I would say part of my heart lives in China.

That I would appreciate the Chinese culture for what and how it is.

I never dreamed I would feel such intense emotions the day they placed her in my arms.

I will always remember that room in Hunan, China. My life changed forever and I changed forever! I could not believe she was my baby. "My Baby".......forever and always. "My Baby Girl".

I never dreamed I'd be sharing this experience with 10 other families.

It was the most beautiful "delivery room" I have ever been in, in my life.

I never dreamed I could instantly fall in love with her eyes.

Oh how I think they are so beautiful. I remember that first day in China. When she fell asleep in David's arms. I noticed her eyes IMMEDIATELY! Took that first picture and captured that small tear. It nearly broke my heart.

I never dreamed that once we were home with her, that nothing else in my world would matter.

I was in a euphoric state of mind......I didn't care about anything else except my family/home and making it a safe and happy place.

I never dreamed that losing some of my friends in the process wouldn't really faze me.

I'd been given a gift.....a gift that they couldn't and can't understand. She was and still is the most incredible thing I have ever, EVER experienced in my life. I don't need much more!

I never dreamed that I would feel such a strong sense of protection over her.

I pray that I am prepared to deal with the comments that will come her way. That I will be able to comfort her and help her grow to be a strong and confident girl.

I never dreamed I'd have a daughter with hair the color of night.

Or that I would secretly wish that mine was the same as hers. I might just have that color someday.

I never dreamed I'd have a child that was so incredibly beautiful in my eyes.

When I look at her, I am just in awe of her beauty and features!

I never dreamed that she could save me during one of the darkest times of my life.

She has brought me hope, peace and fulfillment when I didn't think it was possible.

I never dreamed I would hear the pitter patter of tiny feet in my house again.

When I hear her upstairs running around, my heart just skips a beat and her laughter is the most beautiful sound to me.

I never dreamed that I would be able to give Emmie that younger sister she wanted so badly through her childhood.

When I see the two of them together, or even just thinking about it, the tears fill my eyes and the water fall begins.

I never dreamed that she truly would bring us "Double Happiness".

People tell me that it is because of her, that we have Daniel. Perhaps that's so.

I just never dreamed that at this point in my life..... being 40 years old, that I could be so blessed! I pray for a another sister for her. To help her with her own story that she must face one day. But most of all, I hope I can help her work through this journey. That I have the words and comfort that she will need, because there isn't anything, ANYTHING in this world that I wouldn't do for her or to help her heal and feel my love!

I Never Dreamed......